It took me 2-3 years time to finally go back to hookers/escorts. Everybody has the right to fuck I thought. And I don’t need to think that it is always like that. I was traumatized. I thought that a girl suddenly would go in panic attack or fuck me without condoms and suddenly having a baby. Let’s just say. It took another full year. So I went one year to hookers just too see them naked. For an emotional bound, etc. The first time that I saw an escort again was an insane moment. She touched me. Just my cheeck. And after 2-3 years no sex, no warmth, no love, I started to cry it out. Couldn’t move, my mind had so many flashbacks. We immediately needed to stop the session. She said. “Wow, I never experienced this. I think it is better to stop this session. And take some rest”





























